I miss the nights when we first started talking and you always told me I shouldn’t have had to worry about anything, and you always knew what to say to cheer me up or when you always knew I was upset. I miss that day when I saw you unexpectedly at the mall. I miss the nights I forced myself to stay awake just so I could talk to you, and I miss texting you all day in school. I miss going to canal fest just to see you because I didn’t even want to go at all. I miss the night you walked to my house at 1 in the morning in the pouring rain. I miss the night I tried to sneak out to walk to your house, then realized how far it was and turned around. I miss the last night of canal fest when I saw you and pushed you and you told me you loved me. I miss the last time I saw you over the summer and we walked around and then you kissed me for the first time. I miss the beginning of this year when I had to walk through city of tonawanda just to see you. I miss the first time you picked me up and I went to go get gas with you before you had practice and then you put on tyga. I miss sitting on my couch, looking out my window then seeing your car pull up and getting that nervous but excited feeling. I miss you standing at my door for 5 minutes because you wouldn’t knock and I didn’t believe you were there. I miss laying in my bed with you watching stupid tv shows or movies or sports shit, and I miss talking about everything and laughing about dumb things. I miss the way you’d wrestle with me to try to get my phone and how it always ended up as us cuddling or when you figured out that I’m ticklish pretty much everywhere and didn’t stop no matter how many times I told you to. I really loved that even though I was basically screaming at you. I miss when you would kiss me basically whenever I looked at you. I miss your hugs, those were always my favorite. I miss how perfect everything seemed when we were together and how safe and comfortable you made me feel. I miss when you’d make fun of me, or when I thought you weren’t listening to me but then you’d repeat everything I said. I miss last year when you made me send you a picture of me right before I went to bed and you told me how beautiful I was. I miss that night when you texted me and told me that you weren’t able to forget about me and that you needed me to be happy. Or last year when you kept sending me the lyrics to lap dance and thats how I found out who tyga was, or when you’d send me a good morning text during 3rd period because that was when you were waking up. I miss the way I was able to be myself around you and how we talked for hours about nothing but never got sick of each other. I wish things could be different, because for over a year now I haven’t been able to forget you. I’ve tried, I’ve really really tried and I can honestly say that no one has meant as much as you did. I find something wrong with anyone else and its because they’re not you. You’re the only person I’d give endless chances to because I always find myself wanting to be with you. No one can make me smile like you can and I’m happiest when I’m with you. Maybe it will take the 3 years, I just hope that one day we can be together.

Sunday Apr 4 @ 12:44pm