I miss you, a lot. I’m not gonna text you first anymore though and I’m gonna try to stop with all my tweets and tumblr posts. I’m sad, really sad, but not as bad as I thought I would be. I guess I’m trying to just shut the feeling out by trying to focus on other things and it works sometimes. 8 days since we last spoke. I don’t think you’re coming back. I wish I never took you for granted and I wish I never started so many fights. I’m going to be okay because I’m trying to stay strong and I’m not doing too bad. I’d rather be lonely than be with anyone but you, and if I can get used to being lonely I’ll be fine, right? Its time for me to give myself a break anyway. There’s no point in worrying and over thinking everything when I’ve already done everything to try to bring you back. The less I think about it the happier I’ll be. I need to focus on school, and getting better sleep, and working out more and all of those help me keep my mind off you. There are so many things that I miss about you, I’m not going to sit here and make this super long by naming them all but I just, I don’t know. Maybe you’ll come back and one day everything will be better between us but for now I’m just going to let whatever’s  meant to happen, happen. I miss you, but why bother trying so hard for someone who isn’t interested. I’ve done enough to try to save this, if you care, you’ll make us work. 

Friday Mar 3 @ 10:35pm